Faith is a personal thing. God is with everyone all the time. Sometimes it takes time away to see that. I think there is a good amount of crap and disingenuous stuff people put out and they don’t even know it. Faith is important but how one is treated in a community of believers is important. Hospitality in a house of worship is vital. Love is key.
So many people say canned things because they haven’t thought about what they are saying. I work hard to be a different believer that doesn’t offer any BS. I hope I never make anyone feel uncomfortable or preached at. Hang in there and when ready have faith.